Make me Catherine again, please!

I really would like to change my middle name back to my original middle name. When I got married, it was family tradition for the women to take their maiden name initial and use it as their new middle name and then take the man's last name. This was easy pre-1980. My mother has "L." as her middle name, and my grandmother has "W." as hers. I went along with this because I just thought it was the way it should be at the time. I thought having "B." would be no biggie. It was tinily symbolic and I like traditions.

Now, 4 years later (well, I have been thinking about this off and on for the past 4 years!), I am really pissed I did this and it would be a nightmare to change my middle name back to "Catherine" like I want to.

The whole "using the maiden name initial" thing didn't work out since we have such security issues in this country these days, so they (*the IRS, DMV, and SS Office*) basically changed the initial "B" to the complete maiden name. Now I have my first name, full maiden name, and husband's last name all together-- not hyphenated, but all there. So now I look like one of those women who have beef about dropping their maiden names, but I am SOOO not into that. I am an old-fashioned girl. When I married hubby, I fully became Mrs. H. I didn't want to drag the old me into it, but my old name (that is hard to spell, too) is still in my life because I didn't realize what I was doing at the time. GAH!

I have inquired to the SS Office about changing a middle name, so we'll see if they ever write back. It is pretty much a given that it will make the rest of my life torturous every time I want to open a bank account, get a loan, credit card, etc. since that is how this country operates with security.

Have any of you had experiences with this name changing stuff?